Health & Resolutions
For those who read the previous post and may have some concern about my health, I am fairly healthy at this point although it has been up and down. I’ve undergone a blood test (results late next week) and two (the first didn’t show anything) ECG‘s (which I don’t know when I get the results for, but I don’t suspect it’s heart related anyway (I should stop using so many brackets)). Organising the second ECG was rather hectic, but amusing. There was a lot of back and forth, consisting of about 8 phone calls, only to find out that the surgery sent it by e-mail when it has to be done by fax. They then said the next available date was in twelve days’ time, which is particularly unhelpful given I’ll be in Oxford. Luckily my mum works in a hospital, so it’s been informally done that way.
I’ve informed my tutors of the health issues, which has taken a massive burden off my shoulders. I do feel rather guilty, in some way, that despite health I really should have done more. I cannot escape this, but must try to get most, if not all of it done just to prove to myself that I will work hard if I wish to (at this point at least, my health is sufficiently good to work).
In terms of New Year’s Resolutions, I do suppose have one: don’t go on about how people can make resolutions any day and try to embrace that people are trying to make a positive change for themselves. I shan’t be making any myself as I think persistently about self-improvement, albeit not at the moment due to health restricting, so there wouldn’t be anything really new to add specifically on New Year’s Day other than by coincidence. I also wish to be flexible in my goals, for I could easily change my mind about what I wish to do or not do; say I wished to do something time-consuming, but then I find something I think is more worthwhile. Then, by making a resolution I am risking either breaking it or mismanaging my time. This is of course theoretical, and in practice if I had made a resolution a much greater issue would be sticking to it.
Beyond this, my mental state seems to be very strong, being both positive and realistic about myself. This isn’t all that impressive given that I’m currently in better health than recently and that I’m not really interacting with people all that much, so issues are substantially less likely to arise. Nevertheless, I am content despite issues at this point and am looking forward to the next series of Borgen next term.
May you be well, with ease and joy in your heart.